still waiting!

your thoughts !
A sword in my heart.
leaves a deep damn scar.. tears run down my cheeks.
I realize the unconditional love, which seems so weak
I came to terms simply to satisfy your needs... your likes
and yet I'm the one begging on my knees
smiling and laughing have no boundaries
and won't since they aren't found by me
viewing you from a distance I can't speak
scent so strong I can't breathe ; cant sleep.
lyrically I'm different
like an alter ego on these beats..yet to explain.
but only a child when I recite my poetry
I miss you and time is the one to blame
still waiting and wondering if you remember me.
Is it raining there ?
it may symbolizes my tears
thunder and lighting my voice calling you here
I can't smile laugh or enjoy what lies ahead of me
because you're my priority
and to this day I'm still stating
you are not mine... just simply waiting.....

when you speak!

You spoke about friendship.
The one which was so precious to me,
The one which I was painting so carefully in my heart.
It was becoming more beautiful day by day.
It was about to touch its perfection
But then I realized ...
It never turned out to have your face in it.
I tried to correct it .. in vain.
I had no tool left for help.
Even the handful bunch of memories
which I hold so tightly to my heart has skipped from my hands....
like the white loose sand I collected from the beach.
The more I hold tight I more I lost.
Now that I have an empty hand....
I think I have all reasons to be sad..
It makes me cry...
When you speak about friendship.

.....going away

hold on the person you love,
before they slip away.
you may never get them back.....
A year and a half ago when you crafted a hood and apron sink for my life..i didn't
But i did realize,
when you left me,
i lived for the time you loved me.
until there was you, i could try myself to sleep..
while i had you, i feel asleep with a gentle smile on my cheeks!
before i lose you,
i moved myself to sleep..
a kiss on the forehead;
a wish for good night.
now that i know you are gone.......
i sit up at night, awaiting for you....
with a hope... you will come back !!!